OMFG

I think that I am losing my mind. I bawled like a baby watching the opening ceremonies of the Olympics during the Parade of Nations when the athletes walk in...especially when a country would walk in with only 1 or 2 athletes. I bawled like a baby watching one of the Chinese figure skating pairs win a silver medal after totally eating it on their quad throw tonight. I bawled like a baby sending my best friend a Valentine's Day card telling him that I am proud of him. I bawled like a baby knowing that one of my other friends was depressed about tomorrow. being Valentine's Day and him being alone after a nasty break-up. I bawled like a baby because 2 people on www.bodymod.org added my latest tattoo as one of their favorite mods. I bawled like a baby....are you sensing a pattern here? Someone please MAKE THIS STOP. I am so tired of feeling this depressed all the time. On the good side, I've gone back to writing poetry (after a near 8 year writer's block), but on the bad side it's all incredibly depressing poetry like the poem I posted a couple of days ago. I'm having trouble keeping myself going to school and keeping up, but Tyson has taken it upon himself to keep tabs on me. With all that he's going through...he's still taking care of me. Can you see why he is my best friend? I am so proud of him and the fact that he is immortalized in my newest tattoo. I just wish that I felt deserving of someone so wonderful. Sigh.