My Johari Window

Arena (known to self and others) caring, friendly, idealistic, independent, sympathetic	Blind Spot (known only to others) accepting, brave, cheerful, complex, confident, dependable, energetic, giving, happy, helpful, intelligent, kind, knowledgeable, loving, powerful, trustworthy, warm, wise, witty
Façade (known only to self)	Unknown (known to nobody) able, adaptable, bold, calm, clever, dignified, extroverted, ingenious, introverted, logical, mature, modest, nervous, observant, organised, patient, proud, quiet, reflective, relaxed, religious, responsive, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, sensible, sentimental, shy, silly, spontaneous, tense

Dominant Traits

66% of people agree that JenBeals is caring

All Percentages

able (0%) accepting (50%) adaptable (0%) bold (0%) brave (16%) calm (0%) caring (66%) cheerful (16%) clever (0%) complex (16%) confident (16%) dependable (33%) dignified (0%) energetic (16%) extroverted (0%) friendly (33%) giving (33%) happy (16%) helpful (16%) idealistic (16%) independent (16%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (16%) introverted (0%) kind (33%) knowledgeable (33%) logical (0%) loving (16%) mature (0%) modest (0%) nervous (0%) observant (0%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (16%) proud (0%) quiet (0%) reflective (0%) relaxed (0%) religious (0%) responsive (0%) searching (0%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (0%) sentimental (0%) shy (0%) silly (0%) spontaneous (0%) sympathetic (16%) tense (0%) trustworthy (16%) warm (16%) wise (16%) witty (16%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 1.3.2006, using data from 6 respondents.
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Something to Lighten the Mood

You Are Seductive Flirt

Smoldering hot, you don't really flirt. You seduce. For you, flirting is just foreplay. You don't flirt unless it's going somewhere. You have one goal in mind when you flirt... And you usually get it!

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

You Are 40% Addicted to Love

Might as well face it, you're a little addicted to love. You won't do anything for love, but sometimes you do more than you should. No one's worth losing your head for - because in the end you'll only lose your heart. Don't avoid falling in love. Just make sure you don't get too hooked.

Are You Addicted to Love?

You Are An Extrovert!

You have a ton of friends, perhaps more friends than anyone you know. Nothing to do on Friday night? No problem for you to find the action. You're friendly, easy to know, and you seem to get along with almost everyone. You love to express yourself - and everyone knows a good deal about you. Whether you're giving your opinion or sharing your dreams, you don't keep anything in.

Are You An Extrovert or Introvert?

For the Incomparable Mr. Alex! (The Distance - Cake)

Cake - The Distance


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Reluctantly crouched at the starting line
Engines pumping and thumping in time
The green light flashes, the flags go up
Churning and burning they yearn for the cup

They deftly manuver and muscle for rank
Fuels burning fast on an empty tank
Reckless and wild, they pour through the turns
Their prowess is potent and secretly stern

As they speed through the finish, the flags go down
The fans get up and they get out of town
The arena is empty except for one man
Still driving and striving as fast as he can

The sun has gone down and the moon has come up
Not long ago somebody left with the cup
But he's driving and striving an hugging the turns
And thinking of someone for who he still burns

He's going the distance
He's going for speed
She's all alone, all alone, all alone in a time of need

Because he's racing and pacing and plotting the course
He's fighting and biting and riding on his horse
He's going the distance

No trophies, no flowers, no flashbulbs, no lime
He's haunted by something he cannot define
Bowel shaking earthquakes of doubt and remorse
Assail him and bail him with monster truck force

In his mind he's still driving, still making the grade
She's hoping in time that her memories will fade
'Cause he's racing and pacing and plotting the course
He's fighting and biting and riding on his horse

The sun has gone down and the moon has come up
Not long ago somebody left with the cup
But he's striving and driving and hugging the turns
And thinking of someone for who he still burns

'Cause he's going the distance,
He's going for speed
She's all alone
All alone
All alone
In a time of need

Because he's racing and pacing and plotting the course
He's fighting and biting and riding on his horse
He's racing and pacing and plotting the course
He's fighting and biting and ridding on his horse
He's going the distance
He's going for speed
He's going the distance

Tell Me Something New....

You Are 68% Evil

You are very evil. And you're too evil to care. Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot.

How Evil Are You?

What Do You Do?...

When your heart is missing? Someone tell me. Until then...drink up kids.

Someday We'll Save Each Other (Bring Me to Life - Evanescence)

Evanescence - Bring Me To Life


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how can you see into my eyes
like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb

without a soul
my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and
lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside
without your touch
without your love darling
only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

Phew...Crisis Averted

Well, it only took 18 hours of tinkering, hacking, rebuilding, and backing up, but I finally got my laptop up and running. That officially was the suckiest thing EVER! I can't wait until I get a new laptop and can go Michael Bolton on this one. You know what I mean? This thing's lucky I'm not armed.

(For those of you who perhaps are missing that reference there, it's from one of the all-time great movies, Office Space. You should totally rent it, mmmm 'kay? And I'm going to need you to come in on Sunday as well.)

ARRRGGH!

So I went to turn on my laptop tonight and it will not work! Apparently sometime between it shutting down perfectly last night and my pushing the power button tonight, it found the time to corrupt some file. Greeeeaaat. It sounds like I have to reformat the entire computer. ALL my schoolwork is on there, my wedding planning stuff, EVERYTHIGN. At least I backed up all my digital photos this past week... *Sigh*

New Music Monday! (Times Like These - Foo Fighters)

TIMES LIKE THESE (Foo Fighters)

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I am a one way motorway
I'm the one that drives away
then follows you back home
I am a street light shining
I'm a wild light blinding bright
burning off alone

it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again

I am a new day rising
I'm a brand new sky
to hang the stars upon tonight
I am a little divided
do I stay or run away
and leave it all behind?

it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again

Too Freakin' Cold...Inside and Out

So today was the first day in nearly a week to break over 0 degrees. It's about time! I'm tired of feeling so cold all the time. That goes for my insides as well. I'm tired of feeling so cold inside as well. With having to go of my meds, I can feel myself slowly spinning out of control again. I'm trying to keep it together long enough for one of the psychiatrists on my insurance plan to start accepting patients again, but it's soooo hard. Unless you've ever suffered from a major depressive or other mental disorder, you really have no idea how much energy it takes just to put on a "normal" face for the people around you. Tyson understands and is always there for me, but I hate to lean to heavily on him because I know that he is working on his own recoveries. Alex understands and is there for me, but he's in England which makes it hard to really lean on period. Matt of course is there for me, but he really doesn't understand what I'm going through, and that makes it hard for him to deal with it. Neither of our families know that I am/was in therapy or on medications - they wouldn't get it. Matt's family is like him, fabulous but lacking the understanding of the disorder. My family just thinks...I don't know what they think. I know that when I first went into therapy in high school, my parents pulled me out the minute I was diagnosed with having anything other than "moody teenagerness". Medication was out of the question for them. So here I wait. Waiting for the sun.